When I see a church filled with people a feeling of being lost rises in me, I wish i could have been a part of them, I miss believing with innocence and singing to the hymns. I wish I could be one among them again, but will I be? I dont knw...
I am in a battle with myself, I dont wanna establish my theories or wanna get into debates with some another about faith. I am in a battle with myself.
But one thing I know is that in time of deep despair or fear I have lost my ally.
Im stuck between two beliefs and wish I could levitate and see both much clearer from above and make up my mind....
Blogadda who are you reading today
Monday, March 21, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
Religious Hypnosis
Im not an athiest, I dont knw what to tell them. I can say im a believer only because I was told to believe, right from the start of my life, but another reason is that I pray when I get scared and hopeless.
Damn that movie! After watching "Man From Earth" and the theory about Christ in it is much more believable. The theory is that Christ was just a human like everyone else but gifted with grace elegance and Knowledge. The church wanted to stamp their superiority so later all this story about the Son of God and the rest was made up.
I have also read the same about Hindu Gods, Krishna and co, they were too normal kings, but gifted in warcraft and diplomacy.
Somehow these versions are believable due to their appalling simplicity.
Also in this book I have read "Conversations with God", its being said the life around us, thats GOD!!
So all this appeals to my simple sense . I agree Religion is essential to create a good morale in the society. But I kinda think the religious gurus have gone overboard with things.
When I pray now its mostly out of habit and now im confused of what to do.
but I guess in the end nobody can prove or disprove anything and its always better to stick with the crowd because else you are not going to be labeled brave and revolutionary, but sick and insane, thats how it was always been.
Ending this with one of my fav quote...
"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones."
— Marcus Aurelius
Damn that movie! After watching "Man From Earth" and the theory about Christ in it is much more believable. The theory is that Christ was just a human like everyone else but gifted with grace elegance and Knowledge. The church wanted to stamp their superiority so later all this story about the Son of God and the rest was made up.
I have also read the same about Hindu Gods, Krishna and co, they were too normal kings, but gifted in warcraft and diplomacy.
Somehow these versions are believable due to their appalling simplicity.
Also in this book I have read "Conversations with God", its being said the life around us, thats GOD!!
So all this appeals to my simple sense . I agree Religion is essential to create a good morale in the society. But I kinda think the religious gurus have gone overboard with things.
When I pray now its mostly out of habit and now im confused of what to do.
but I guess in the end nobody can prove or disprove anything and its always better to stick with the crowd because else you are not going to be labeled brave and revolutionary, but sick and insane, thats how it was always been.
Ending this with one of my fav quote...
"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones."
— Marcus Aurelius
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
a short breath...the shallow monotony!
I have been feeling riddled in the maze of monotony, which in my own lines I would quote as
"Monotony in its grave peril!!"
"The meloncholic shallow emotion"
And more than depressed I was, in dire need of a getaway, but too tangled in these cobwebs.....
Okay I know, enough of philo, Im just tired of not having any thing other than my work to cheer me up, and the routine stuff, Office-Flat-Office-Flat!
Effin tired!
(But before things get worse let me you, I love what I have in my office alrigh, its fun to be in) Okay here goes
Just now I got out of office, went had food, and on my way to flat I thought what the heck am i gonna do there, Yes I knw, Kings Speech and Colin Firth awaits me, But they will too another day, So at 9 pm I came back to office, Talk about not having a life~~!!
Wish I could have gone somewhere you know, like a getaway, ride through a countryside for days stopping at the small towns in the way, or just go away and live in some mountains with lotsa books...mm...
the basic problem what I feel is there is nothing to look forwards to at the end of the day, all you see is tomorrow with the same routine....
a getaway is all I want,
dont wanna quit but merely a breath of the pristine,
blue skies n green should be the pastures,
with love amidst or beside,
a breath of purity, simplicity...
just a short breath...
"Monotony in its grave peril!!"
"The meloncholic shallow emotion"
And more than depressed I was, in dire need of a getaway, but too tangled in these cobwebs.....
Okay I know, enough of philo, Im just tired of not having any thing other than my work to cheer me up, and the routine stuff, Office-Flat-Office-Flat!
Effin tired!
(But before things get worse let me you, I love what I have in my office alrigh, its fun to be in) Okay here goes
Just now I got out of office, went had food, and on my way to flat I thought what the heck am i gonna do there, Yes I knw, Kings Speech and Colin Firth awaits me, But they will too another day, So at 9 pm I came back to office, Talk about not having a life~~!!
Wish I could have gone somewhere you know, like a getaway, ride through a countryside for days stopping at the small towns in the way, or just go away and live in some mountains with lotsa books...mm...
the basic problem what I feel is there is nothing to look forwards to at the end of the day, all you see is tomorrow with the same routine....
a getaway is all I want,
dont wanna quit but merely a breath of the pristine,
blue skies n green should be the pastures,
with love amidst or beside,
a breath of purity, simplicity...
just a short breath...
Monday, January 10, 2011
The New Year Resolutions!
Guess I really should put down my resolutions on paper before I start forgetting them. I mean there were five of them and the fifth one I just cant remember it. So now there are four and I still tend to forget them . So guess putting it here would be a good idea such that next year instead of making new resolutions I can just copy it from here :D
Okay Number One: The ever present "Shed Weight" reso!
I think this was there in my list for like last 5-6 years. But its high time I start on something as the weight reached a glorious figure of 82kgs! and with a height of 5'7 thats like obese.
Number Two: Learn Swimming.
This is in my head for quite a while and hope this will be the year....
Number Three: Get into a more organized lifestyle. As official responsibilities start increasing I guess this should be given high priority. But just dont think this is possible, lol, I guess even something minor could be counted in as success.
Number four: Clear the damn supplies!! Nothing else to comment on it.!
Guess that does the trick. Just wish I could have remembered the fifth one.
P.S: Along with these there is the eternal resolution to end up being a good human in all ways. With better emotional maturity!
Cheers!
Okay Number One: The ever present "Shed Weight" reso!
I think this was there in my list for like last 5-6 years. But its high time I start on something as the weight reached a glorious figure of 82kgs! and with a height of 5'7 thats like obese.
Number Two: Learn Swimming.
This is in my head for quite a while and hope this will be the year....
Number Three: Get into a more organized lifestyle. As official responsibilities start increasing I guess this should be given high priority. But just dont think this is possible, lol, I guess even something minor could be counted in as success.
Number four: Clear the damn supplies!! Nothing else to comment on it.!
Guess that does the trick. Just wish I could have remembered the fifth one.
P.S: Along with these there is the eternal resolution to end up being a good human in all ways. With better emotional maturity!
Cheers!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
White Bloggy Sugar \m/
"Its an evenflow....
Ancel Edwin is a singer who had made me awestruck with his vocals the last time I had heard "Boogeyman"(i mean could it get better??)!!
But after today's gig I just have one thing to say
WhiteSugar Rocks!!!
I dint realized how hard a WS fan I was until today, I mean I totally missed you guys together today . I am just back after the gig at Sand dunes with Ancel in the vocals and Clement Nijo and Gilbert as backup along with boy wonder Freddie.
Though Ancel is why I went for the show (P.S I dint know about whitesugar's involvement until
the last minute) but it was whitesugar who have made me stay and even after the last song was played I dint wanna leave the place as WS was still there.
Through out the show my mind was like wishing if Ancel would magically metamorphose(not into a monster like in Kafka's) but even better into James!!! I sorely missed him and his antics!
No Offense to Ancel (you are out of the world with your vocals man, like too gud!! thou I did felt he was a lil off colour today)
but I wanted to see whitesugar and I wanted to see whitesugar.
James the rockstar, Clement the God of Guitar, Nijo the bass hero and Gilbert the laughing drumwizard!
Missed everything, Missed Swamy, missed the time machine, the myth, country, rage against the machine and everything you guys are about.
It's Just a treat too see you guys together in the stage, a treat for the burning youth to whom the rock you perform is an ignition to shake off everything around and to tel' em to screw off!
Rock Rules!! The Fist!!!Looking forwards to the next gig with just a doubt, lol, I mean I dunt knw how the small stage in Sand Dunes is gonna contain the WS dynamism and Sad I cant see James jumping to the crowd but who knws he still may find a way to do something crazy... :D
again Whitesugar Rocks!!!
\m/ \m/
Waiting for the next gig
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Reanimated! The girl with beautiful eyes
Well I wanted to do another write up on it and i dint wanna to delete wat i had written previously so i thought i'l write another one about the same thing, yea i knw its boring, but what to do im bored ,lol....
(and yea about my "lols", i have started gettin a lotta people saying dude do less with the "lols", but it has became such a common habit in my writing, but im trying to reduce it :D ) So peace!!
I wish I had'n done that, because now her face and eyes are haunting me....
Okay guys the recap...
Scene1 the regular: The daily dinner ride to abhirami...Me Arun Kuria and Saniboi...
Scene 2 the regular favourite: A good looking girl with very dreamy eyes walks in....blackish eyes with matching eyebrows and could say maybe almond shaped :D
And like very normal guys we started looking at her ...the very normal ogling sessions i guess...
and then the idea of why not going and compliment her, let me tel you guys it would be worth complimenting because its not everyday you could see eyes that you cant stop looking at...
but anyway the suggestion was dismissed as premature...
Scene3 the getaway: The feeling of wanting to compliment remained strong for me and Arun(for obvious reasons this name Arun will be said as Pothay, after the pothay royal family of paravoor :D ),anyway coming back, sany and kuria left and we remained, but we were very much aware of our backbone Itch's and thought of treating it and left the scene back to the flat...Yes like almost always we decided to bunk the thought!
Scene 4 the unusual comeback: Riding back we had the normal discussion of we could have done it and blah blah, So i thought damn why not like Robert Frost would have said "take the road less travelled"....Bham we are back in front of abhirami and yes she is still there...
Scene 5 the very unusual: There she comes , pothay had arranged the bike in the getaway position , there she is , my breath would have been so asynchronous with my heartbeat...breathless but heart beating like an angry drum!
There she is....
"excuse me"
She turns
"hi, we just wanted to say a compliment, your eyes, they look really beautiful..., well I just wanted to say that"
An expression of shock and surprise on her face...
A stupid nervousness in me....I showed a "thats all" hand gesture and jumped back to the bike and left....
Scene 6 the aftertaste: I wish I knew her name, I had already forgotten how she looked like, I dont knw if i will see her again, but the corporate tag and the routine abhirami dinner habit the only hope...
I felt like i was in love for atleast a minute...im not by the way....
wish I could have done it better or waited for her reply or something but this being my first experience in something like this(This para is just to let know that im not someone who does this on regular basis, lol)
Scene 7 the unknown: Will I ever see her again....a big deep sigh...it left me singing my fav song that soo coincidentally had everything to do with this situation...
"her eyes, her eyes, make stars look like they are not shining...."
Artist:Boyce avenue-Just the way you are..."
Waiting for Scene 8....
(and yea about my "lols", i have started gettin a lotta people saying dude do less with the "lols", but it has became such a common habit in my writing, but im trying to reduce it :D ) So peace!!
I wish I had'n done that, because now her face and eyes are haunting me....
Okay guys the recap...
Scene1 the regular: The daily dinner ride to abhirami...Me Arun Kuria and Saniboi...
Scene 2 the regular favourite: A good looking girl with very dreamy eyes walks in....blackish eyes with matching eyebrows and could say maybe almond shaped :D
And like very normal guys we started looking at her ...the very normal ogling sessions i guess...
and then the idea of why not going and compliment her, let me tel you guys it would be worth complimenting because its not everyday you could see eyes that you cant stop looking at...
but anyway the suggestion was dismissed as premature...
Scene3 the getaway: The feeling of wanting to compliment remained strong for me and Arun(for obvious reasons this name Arun will be said as Pothay, after the pothay royal family of paravoor :D ),anyway coming back, sany and kuria left and we remained, but we were very much aware of our backbone Itch's and thought of treating it and left the scene back to the flat...Yes like almost always we decided to bunk the thought!
Scene 4 the unusual comeback: Riding back we had the normal discussion of we could have done it and blah blah, So i thought damn why not like Robert Frost would have said "take the road less travelled"....Bham we are back in front of abhirami and yes she is still there...
Scene 5 the very unusual: There she comes , pothay had arranged the bike in the getaway position , there she is , my breath would have been so asynchronous with my heartbeat...breathless but heart beating like an angry drum!
There she is....
"excuse me"
She turns
"hi, we just wanted to say a compliment, your eyes, they look really beautiful..., well I just wanted to say that"
An expression of shock and surprise on her face...
A stupid nervousness in me....I showed a "thats all" hand gesture and jumped back to the bike and left....
Scene 6 the aftertaste: I wish I knew her name, I had already forgotten how she looked like, I dont knw if i will see her again, but the corporate tag and the routine abhirami dinner habit the only hope...
I felt like i was in love for atleast a minute...im not by the way....
wish I could have done it better or waited for her reply or something but this being my first experience in something like this(This para is just to let know that im not someone who does this on regular basis, lol)
Scene 7 the unknown: Will I ever see her again....a big deep sigh...it left me singing my fav song that soo coincidentally had everything to do with this situation...
"her eyes, her eyes, make stars look like they are not shining...."
Artist:Boyce avenue-Just the way you are..."
Waiting for Scene 8....
Friday, December 10, 2010
The deceitful masks...
A work i really loved from two of my work colleagues.... Thanks for sharing with this me, Clement and Pradeep, the two restless souls in search for the higher meaning... Maybe they are right, maybe its the masks that are smiling at us...
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